无题

噩耗，突然至，惊呆。灵魂立刻不辞而别，迟迟没回来。无可避免，哀伤，一直徘徊，纵然知道距离使结果只有一个：独自祈祷，祈愿，及哀悼。然而，难免联想父母之颜，是何等令孩儿心痛。仰望天空，云不在；回望小溪，水停流；四周张望，花草青山朦朦胧，只剩壁上蓝海影。为何？为何？为何？疑惑，平行思绪，没有答案。恐惧，随应担忧，横飞脑海。够了，别乱了阵脚，失了方寸！战事临临，专注力不能丢。父母之意，岂是盼孩儿如此？路，得前进。不达目标，有何面目会见江东父老？就对壁上蓝海影也无地自容！人生，这就是人生。请保佑，每个人，都平安，健康。真的，请保佑。。。

（乱，哀，忧之下的文字。莫怪。）

想念书

这是我家里的小书橱，大多数都是我两年在吉隆坡的收获。如今，我却只能在网络使用电子书来解我的书瘾（也不知这算不算侵犯知识产权？）不过，对着电脑看着数十行的文字，眼睛很快就累，甚至由此加深我的近视也不定。真的好想重新找回那种把书握在手中，尽情遨游于知识海洋的充实感。

这里，不是没有书本，书店还是林立，但都是日语书。想找本英文书也难，更何况是华语书？难道真应验了当初我曾说的：我不能再挺翻译版走进春上村树的挪威森林？

陌生的语言，埋藏着浩瀚的知识。势已逼人，我也只好勇闯一番了。。。

此刻，听着Cannon in D, 缅怀身在Kinokuniya的悠闲，想念那股浓烈书香。尤其如今书市开幕，更使我恨不得能瞬间穿越两时空，再次走一趟书海，再次满载而归。。。可惜，可惜。。。

我已决定，回到祖国，肯定首先游一回书海。不游书海，人生何味也？

Nasi Lemak

Ya, i ate nasi lemak that day. Finally got some taste of spicy after 2 months...yeah! The japanese cook curry too, but of course it is not the curry that we used to. So, really miss the curry of Malaysia.

Then when my senior was going to cook some curry, the Malay family who has lived here for years brought us some nasi lemak! Oh...how nice they are! Actually we planned to go for picnic instead, but had to cancel it as it was raining that day. Nevermind, at least i got to eat nasi lemak! Very tasty, and spicy! Sigh...I wish i could eat wan tan mee now...

Design and Drawing

Ya, one of my subject is this Design and Drawing, the most headache subject that i have ever had before. You don't need to memorize any formula, not even understand any theory, but just draw it! Oh, don't think that drawing is easy. I think the one who is studying Mechanical Engineering will know what i mean. I have to draw every single line giving all my attention so that i can draw it nicely, smoothly, and then get a nod from the teacher. But it is very hard as the teacher is indeed strict! Oh my...i really don't understand why i need to study this subject as i am in the Chemical Engineering. And I didn't hear from others saying that they are also taking this subject. What a tiring subject it is...i have to rest for some seconds after drawing a line(yes, a line only!). Fortunately, this subject is only taken for the first semester. Huhhh...
And i am using some kind of 'professional' equipments to draw the pictures. Below is one of the equipments. So, what do you think? Easy?

Who are they?

They are students. They chat when the teacher is teaching. No, they are not whispering. They are talking like normal.

They are students. They read comics and play games with their mobile phone when the teacher is teaching. And The teacher continues his lessons, likes nothing happened.

They are students. They fall asleep when the teacher is teaching. Mostly, they fall asleep in the afternoon, the best time to take a nap after having lessons for the whole morning.

They are students. They don't wear uniform. They wear as they are not students, with the fachion and stylish. But sorry, i didn't get attracted until now.

They are 18 years old. what do they chat? Of course, the usual teenage things. What do you expect? The globalization? The environmental problems? Or the Japanese views of history?

They are 18 years old. They like to play. But sometimes, they play without consideration for others. Just like when they talk, they hardly consider about others.

They are the teenagers. They might not know that every single food that they throw away can save a lot of lives every moment. Didn't they ever come across any news about the starving children all over the world?

They are the Japanese, the so-called not-so-friendly people. So they are, but fortunately not everyone is the same. The eldest one are more friendly, as i have received many goodness from them. Thank you.

So, who am i anyway?

I am almost 20 years old, who is a foreigner student from Malaysia. Ya, i am a student too. Yet, honestly, i didn't do anything like them. At least, i finish up my food everytime, not even a single rice is left. As i do know, they are many who couldn't get a single rice everyday. So, this is where the difference between they and me are.

And this might be the reason i feel that there is a gap between they and me. A gap which makes me lost the motion to get into them closer. I just feel more comfortable to be all by myself sometimes. I prefer to let it be, as i am tired to try giving my best to get closer to them. May be it is me who act as not-so-friendly...

There is a gap, but i feel nothing wrong, even though i didn't try to jump over the gap.

Back to the starting point

Many friends keep asking me to write something in English so that others may as well read and leave some comments on it. Then, my brother too, always remind me not to lose my skills in English, especially when i am studying in a country where English is not commonly used.

Ok, i know that i have to pratice English as much as i can. But i just don't have the confident to write something in English. I hardly wrote anything in English for the past 2 years. Besides, i have never been able to write an essay in a very good flow...always full of grammar mistakes and lack of vocabulary. That is why until today, i din't dare to write anything in English yet.

But something crossed my mind today when i was taking my Japanese class. Yesterday i was asked to write an essay. Then, the teacher gave me a comment, saying that it is better to write a sentense in a shorter form: Simple and direct.

Ya, simple and direct...why can't i just write it simple and direct? I don't need so much colourful words to write something. I was thinking too much about how to write as good as i can. But the main point should be don't afraid to try, isn't it? Mistakes make perfect...am i saying the correct phrase?

Nevermind, at least i know what i need to do now. Back to the starting point, keep on practising, do it simple and direct. Life is liked that too, right? Be simple, be yourself, no need to think much about further add-on.

Let's start again from the beginning...

雨中感，怀念

这几天都在下雨。毛毛细雨，连绵而下，没有丝毫停的迹象。难道雨儿们都不会累吗？我却，累了。
不，我不是累在身心上。而是看雨，看得累，甚至累得对雨也厌烦了。终于明白，为何当初日语老师会讨厌下个不停的细雨。没有清爽的感觉，也听不到，大地久等雨润后的欢呼。到处湿嗒嗒的，空气也弥漫着股忧愁，叫人难以起劲。加上来去自如的寒风，更使人恨不得就窝在棉被里一整天。几何，能在沐浴在阳光普照下呢？

不过，我更期望手心张开后，捉到的是一把烈阳，而不是暖阳。对，我想念大马的阳光。我想，回到祖国的第一件事，应该是尽情让阳光射透我，让我每一个细胞都能感受到来自祖国的阳光。。。

除了阳光，我也怀念大马的雨。哪怕是倾盆大雨，还是午后小雨，至少比这里的雨有个性，也能使我心情为之一振。昔时，我都会把自己呆在窗前，看雨，听雨，感受雨滴打在地面上后的音奏。可惜，前事已稀，难追及。

此刻，窗外还是雨个不停。没办法，只好在记忆隧道里，紧紧握着从前那雨的感觉了。。。

颠覆童话：第三次龟兔赛跑

第一次，白兔因为过于自信，在半途中睡着了。结果，持之以恒的乌龟赢得了比赛。
第二次，乌龟利用智慧，选择了有利于他的场地及竞跑方式。结果，白兔再次饮恨而去。
故事没有结束。五十年后，白兔来到乌龟的住所。
“乌龟，我们再来赛跑吧！但这一次，场地由我定！”
“好，奉陪到底。不过，我也有条件。”
“你说吧！”
“你必须在我落后时候停下来，等到我追上来时才再一起出发。”
“开玩笑！这还叫比赛吗？喂，外面的世界已经不是圆的了，是平的！”
“笑话，地球几时是平的？而且，谁叫你今天是来到我的地盘向我挑战，我是主你是客，你该不是想反客为主吧？”
“森林是大家的，也是你我的先贤一起开辟出来的啊！怎么可以说这是你的地盘那是我的地盘？如此分你我，一点团结的意识都没有。。。”
“想请问你一下，你我之间，谁是从远古时代就存在于着森林的？说到资格，你根本就追不上我嘛！”
“这也太扯了吧。。。”
“我的条件还有一个：比赛当天必须有十个裁判在场，六个必须是来自我的家族。”
“六个？那你不是占据优势？”
“哎呀，你就看在我们乌龟先天有个重负担在身上，找工作难，就给多点机会我们啦！”
“负担？那可是特别作来保护你们的东西啊！怎么可以把它当作借口？那你们不是永远有个借口？”
“哎呀，白兔你怎么突然如此多疑问的？上次和你比赛时，我说什么你都没反对啊！而且，这是天意，我们又不是神，做不了什么的。借口也是人人都有，没什么大不了，为什么你就特别针对我呢？”
“唉。。。你还有什么条件啊？”
“场地是由你定，但沿途上不管是经过什么地域，都必须有我们乌龟集团专设的休息站。你知道啦！你们兔子随地可以找水喝找食物吃，我们就不可以啦！背着如此重的壳，难道还要我们在中途想喝水时又走到水源处那么远吗？我可是要专心一致走到终点的哦！”
“几乎都被你们拿完工作，那我们兔子集团呢？”
“简单。待我看看还有没有空缺，才叫你补上罗！”
“啊？”
“不喜欢的话，你可以选择不比赛，离开这地方吧！”

纯粹对话

以下对话纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯属巧合。

“哇，好美啊！”
“果然是世界第一流的建筑物，听说还是世界第二大的呢！”
“看来我们也不赖嘛！咦，怎么墙壁上有一条线的？好像是一条裂缝。。。”
“说你不懂事就是不懂事。那是连接两块墙壁的连接线。因为天气热，物体遇热会膨胀，所以就留了点空间在连接处。”
“噢。。。但是连接线通常不是直直的吗？为什么哪个是弯来弯去似的？”
“这。。。哎呀，那是艺术嘛！人家都是直直的，我们来一个弯弯的，不就显得我们特别罗！就好像人家在太空都是拿个试验瓶子摇来摇去。而我们就搞特别点，拿个奶茶摇来摇去罗！”
“难道为了显示我们是特别的，连厕所的门也要用宝丽龙做？你看，头上还有两块天花板摇摇欲坠呢！这肯定不是艺术吧？”
“这。。。”
“别忘记还有那不久前的办公室漏水事件哦！你又怎么说啊？”
“你问我我问谁哦？连上头也只是指来指去，我们可以做什么喔？”
“我们可以做什么。。。”

I am fine.

六方峰会？

左起是菲律宾，斯里兰卡，Kemboja，寮国，马来西亚（我），及泰国。

花见(hanami)

花见，是日本文化习俗之一。每当樱花绽放之期，公园都会挤满了人潮。亲朋戚友都会相约在樱花树下，赏花、吃东西、谈天说地。甚至有些公司也会为了拉近职员间的关系而进行花见。不过，那天我们只是走走看看。所以，花见对我来说暂时还只是所见所闻。

樱花，河，天空

樱花

五稜郭赏樱花

由于函馆是日本北部，樱花绽放之期也就较东京迟。所以，来了日本一个月左右才有机会欣赏樱花。这天也是随其他留学生一同到函馆著名的五稜郭公园赏樱花。照片中屹立我身后的是公园的瞭望台，可惜当天游客太多，所以没机会一登览花景。不然就有机会俯视设计类似美国五角大厦的五稜郭公园全景。

随手拍摄 - 挡阳

同样的地方，同样的看海。同样的，随手一拍。
阳光高照，也会有黯然的一面。平时走在高阳下，我们都没察觉到这一点吧！凡事都有两面，一味以一角观看，我们可是会错失不少东西呢！

放开眼界，不先入为主，还得从另一角仔细观察。如此，我们的世界就可以不一样了。

随手拍摄 - 看海

昨天与同学去看戏，路经海边，就一起去看看海。那是个码头旁的海边，海水不是很漂亮，但也是久违了的海洋。风很大，吹得我头发乱糟糟的。不过，迎向风的感觉很不错。突然一时兴起，就单手持相机随手一拍。

照片中，我在看海。一望有际的海。海的另一边，大概是本州，大部分的朋友都在那。很想与他们会面话东西，然而昂贵的交通费使我却步。望着一望有际的海，突然很想念大家。下一次聚首，大约是在暑假，或者可能是明年兰草再绽放之期了。

期待。。。

南千岁的电车站

印象中有个广告，是一个刚从外国回来祖国的人站在月台旁，旁边的字幕是：爸、妈，很快我就会回到你们身边，回到家。那时，我看了，就不禁想象他日我回到祖国之时，大约也会和那个广告的主角一样，有着同样的感受。

上面的照片是我在南千岁的电车站拍的。当时，我就不禁想象我重新踏足国土的感觉。那一刻，天空一定是晴蓝的。就算是细雨纷飞，眼前照映的依然是晴蓝。

南千岁的购物场所

那天和学兄到苫小牧与朋友相见，顺道到南千岁的Rera购物中心逛逛。Walau。。。衣服也好鞋子也好都是非常便宜！至少就便宜过函馆。于是，我买了人生第一个Nike物品，而且还不只是一个，而是四件属于Nike品牌的衣服。为什么是衣服，而不是鞋子呢？只是觉得，这里人人都穿Nike鞋，Nike也变得普通似的了。

要保持特色，不随波逐流。个人，甚至国家都当应如此。不然，就会连自己的根在哪都忘记了。。。